I need a break. A break from work. A break from people. A break from everything. I izzz want to be alone. >.< Emonemo mode.

I’m hungry. I think i better go grab some lunch … alone, again … as usual.

 UPDATED!

Back from lunch. Fish fillet meehon iz yums. I did some research on how to change Wordpress themes, and it’s NOT easy at all. Godamnit. Why can’t it be like blogspot or livejournal? I wanna continously bang my head on the table for buying this dot com and using Wordpress.

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I’m listening to The Calling’s “Could it be any harder”  and I iz feeling … sigh. Down lo.

“Could it be any harder to watch you go, to face what’s true
If I only had one more day

I lie down and blind myself with laughter
Well A quick fix of hope is what I’m needin’
And how I wish that I could turn back the hours
But I know I just don’t have the power”

That means 2 more working days. Sigh. I’m stuck in my tiny-sardine cubicle @ work, listening to some ching-chong song, because my collegue is having a ching-chong karaoke session. FML. I hate ching-chong music.

Lol. I say FML so often now, it’s starting to annoy everyone. LOL.

Have you ever wondered why Wednesday is named Wednesday in Adam’s family? Can someone tell me why she’s not like Monday or Sunday? Anyone?

Bad day today. I’m annoyed with a shit load of stuff. Let me try to list them down, if i can remember them all.

1. I woke up @ 7.30am, because i HAD to be @ work BY 8.30am for some stupid meeting. But i ended up leaving home @ 8.10 am (lol, because i knew every1 was gonna be late anyways) …. FML X120103479123710 because i was stuck in a traffic jam for godknowshowlong!!!!!!! Nahbeh! I arrived at Astro @ 9.50 am, so you do the math, how long it took me to get to work.

2. I arrived @ work, and there was 2 pondok otw to the parking area … take a wild guess, what the pondok was there for? Nope. Wrong. The security guards were taking attendence. YES. They took our IDs, took down our ID numbers and asked what department I’m in, then looked at his watch … then wrote down, the time i entered the building. Nahbeh! I was so tempted to ask these lowlife-losers if they’re gonna be here @ 1-2am when we leave to write down what time we leave work. Anyway, the reason why HR is so anal abt attendance and shit is because “appraisals” izzzzz happeningssss next month. So they have ALL the reasons to give you a BE (Below Expectation) memo … and then fire you after that … because they have evidence that we are not discipline enough to work in this godforsaken office. Whodafuckcares.

3. So i arrived late for the meeting which was supposed to be at 8.30 … and i felt so effin’ gulity … ONLY to find out that the blardy fucker who set the meeting time and his partner in crime, izzzzzzzz still sleeping @ home. ZZZzzzzZZZzz. Ccb. Means i woke up early, got stuck in a 1 hr++++ for no effin’ reason. FML. And i thought I was irresponsible. T____T

4. Had another meeting @ 10.30 … so damn7sienz, but after that meeting, my lou sai gave us a 15 minute lecture on attendence and work responsibilities. Whodafuckcares. Well, obviously he does … because it is AGAIN time for appraisal … so he needs to get his team (which happens to be us, a bunch of lazy irresponsible mofos) in the good books for HR or he will be blamed for erm … let’s see … incapable of managing a team of mofos. Then he probably will get a BE letter, and HIS lou sai will fire him then. LOL.

OMFG. I’m rambling so much … but anyways …

5. Had a “pre-pro” meeting … and I HATE pre-pro meetings, because i don’t see a point in having a meeting to so call ‘brain storm” when our ideas and suggestions are usually never taken into consideration. See, working with Mimi is tough, because he is so full of himself … Everything that he says … is ALWAYS right … and brillant, and award-winning … but whatever we say … is just stupid, dumb, & crappy. Mimi reminds me of Hitler. FML. I hate the way he talks … you know he’s going to reject your idea when he starts his sentence with … “IMHO, I dunno, it’s just my opinion, other may have different opinions, i feel blah blah blah blah” and then he ends it with … “I dunno, that’s just IMHO, so … up to you guys? What do you guys think?”. Trust me, if ANYONE shares their ‘honest humble opinions’ after his speech, he will start again la … “But … IMHO ….” Nah beh. Wussup with the IMHO, when it’s not even humble? He should just say … “In my self-centered, proud, always right opinion, and I’m always right, bear that in mind …. i think …” I hate working with ppl who think they’re all that. Not just girls. Boy are the same too. In fact, even more annoying because they have a fucking huge as ego. If a girl says something smart … ( or at least smarter than their ideas), they will definately gun it down, and then later, twist and turn ur idea and make it theirs … and claim all glory after that. Stupid boys.

I have so much more to say … but fuck it, i will continue tomorrow, because i izzzz have another FUCKING MEETTTIIINNGGG. When will this shit end?

FML

Got the email from HR. FML. Seriously, not funny. Who said Malaysian’s have the MOST PUBLIC HOLIDAY? Hah? Wtfrawr! “Loss of productivity”, my backside la. Aiyoooooooooo.

Okay, my boy’s here to pick me up. Chiowdamauz.

Came to a conclusion, the reason why i don’t blog often is because my layout bores the shit outta me. Maybe that’s ALSO the reason why noone EVER reads my blog, and I am not a celebrity blogger. FML. T_____T

Tadah! Clever assumptions leh.

Ok, so i need a new layout, but i don’t know where to start. I hate this wordpress shit, and I realllllllyyyyy regret buying this dotcom. Not that I’m actually paying for it, but still it’s a waste of money. Cipet. cherleebrity.com my arse.

I got sooooo many friggin’ pictures to upload, but i’m to friggin’ lazy. Bleh.

See, this is what i mean, inspirasi elek.

Bai.

Another year has passed, a year closer to Doom’s Day. Not going all ‘yeh sou’ on ya, but seriously …. Doom’s Day is closer than you think, but chillex abit, it’s definitely not 2012. Some big disaster is gonna happen in 2012, to shake the world abit … but the world’s not gonna end yet. Maybe a year later, maybe a year earlier … I dunno, but it’s scary. Fucking scaryballs. And I quote what Junebug will say “FML”.

LOL. I’m kinda addicted to that word now. Is it even a word?!? J

Anyways, my 13 days of 2010 so far, has been sucky. On the last day of 2009, I was sooooo happy the year was gonna end because 2009 was just the worst year ever. Why? Because I was sick. I was admitted to the emergency ward twice, I had to stop working for a month … the hospital & clinic was like my 2^nd home. Yeap. Fuck 2009, but I thought 2010 was gonna be an awesome year, because I was got better in Oct/Nov … until 31^st of December. My “sickness” relapsed. FML.

I was driving back from work, when all of then sudden, I had a panic attack, hyperventilated … etc. I had to stop by the side of the road - called my boy to save me. Well, that’s how 2009 ended, so much dramamama, but I still dragged myself out of the house for a New Year’s Eve dinner with Junebug, CW, Jason & Ace. Dinner by the lake, and then I think we headed to LOL.

Now I have to go bk to my strict diet, and medication. T_____T

Ah well, I haven’t been blogging for sooooo long, so I have soooooo much to say.

My boy tells me, I have to be more positive. Stop being so negative and things will get better. I’ll try. I’ll try to be more thankful. I’ll try to appreciate what I have in front of me, and stop whining abt what I don’t.

Let’s give positivity an attempt here.

2010 is gonna be a great year because :-

1) I’m FINALLY going to Bangkok in May. Yay!

2) I’m going to Hat Yai in Feb too, for a short shopping spree.

3) I intended to return to Brissy. >.< I hope I’m still going this year.

4) Queenbitch is leaving Astro. Woots …. Doublehappiness!

5) I’m getting MARRIED! OMFG!!!!!!!!!

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Gotcha! I was running dry on my ‘Be positive’ list. Heh.

I’ll try to continue the list tomorrow. Maybe find some time to upload some picture.

Okies. Time to chiowdamauz.

Happy 2010, people. >.<

It’s Thursday already. Dunno why, but the week passed pretty fast. Lol. Not that I’m complaining and I’m not looking forward to the weekend anyway. No, I’m no chisin, but this weekend is gonna be a sad & depressing one.

I have English class this weekend. Wtf wtf wtf. Yes, British Council English Course. Because apparently a lot of ppl in my department, despite studying the subject ‘English’ in school for 11 years, plus 2-3 years in college/uni … they still cannot write proper e-mails. How friggin’ hard issit to construct a simple email? Seriously. It’s a friggin’ email, not a letter to the President of United States, so why the f must it be proper PROPER English? I know it’s annoying to get broken English emails, buthen boss should filter la, who needs to brush up  their English and who doesn’t la. My English is not perfect, but I strongly believe I absofuckinglutely do not need to go for English class lo. Godfuckingdamnit. To make things worst, the class is starting at 9am. ZzzZzzz. This means I have to getup early tomorrow. Knnccb.

 Mahai why do I have to deal with stupid ppl every friggin’ day or my life. Why can’t stupid ppl just evaporate from this world la. Makes the world a better place.

I just got an email from HR.

Hallelujah! Wohoooo! Can’t wait for the weekends! Sat, Sun, Monday!!!!! Double wohooo!!!! Might be heading up to Genting this weekend. So my boy can visit his favorite uncle, Uncle Lim. Not literally visit him la, I don’t think he wants to ACTUALLY see Uncle Lim. Scary-ness wei.

 For the past few days, my neck was hurting like a bitch. I think I twisted it or sprained it or something. Don’t ask me how it happened. I woke up on Monday morning, and the neck was already fucked. Driving was a bitch too, because I couldn’t turn my head to look behind. I thought I could sleep it off, but it just got worst yesterday, so I decided to pay the Chinese doctor/sinsei (whatever that word is) a visit.

 The doctor claimed - the cause of the stiff neck is “wind”. Wtf. Whatever la, he’s the expert. So he did some “wind-cupping” on my back … and it left me with 3 round blue-blacks on me back. No tank tops for a week. T____T. Then some minor acupuncture (is that how u spell it?). Surprisingly, it didn’t hurt a bit this time, even though my neck and right hand was numb for a while. But hey, I’m feeling much better now. Kudos to Sinsei Huah San @ Taipan. Oh and normally Chinese doctor make you drink yucky-muddy medicine, but this cool-ass doctor gave me pills to swallow. Just like the Western doctors! >.<”

 I just realized Halloween is coming, and I so wanna go for a Halloween party. Like a house party and not a “club party”. Sobs T_____T. Malaysia is so not-cool. Why isn’t Halloween a big thing here!?!?!? Arghhh …

Is anyone having a Halloween party?!?!? Invite me puhleeeasseee

Edit: WHY ARE THERE BLUE BORDERS AROUND MY DAMN PICTURES?!?!?! WTF. HOW TO MAKE IT GO AWAY?????

Work iz sucks. I think I have lost ALL my passion for what I’m doing. No more fire liow. No more excitement. Sigh. Most days, after work, I just wanna lock myself in the bathroom, sit on the floor and just cry. Most days, I just wanna lock myself in my room and break stuff, punch pillows & scream. Most days, I just need some TLC after work. That will make everything okay again. But everyday, I just close my eyes & pray, telling myself tomorrow is gonna be a better day. Work iz suck ballsssss. Lotsa balls!!!! Ok. Enough of self-pity.

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On a brighter note …

Congrats to my boy & I because we made it. YES! 1 year & 1 month. (and still counting >.<”)
13 friggin’ months putting up with each other’s shit. Don’t ask me how we celebrated, because we didn’t. Don’t ask me why, because I honestly don’t have the answer to that question myself. Maybe my boy thinks 1 year is no biggie. Maybe 10 years would be something to shout about. >.<”

Anyway i was camwhoring with my iMac yesterday … happily layaning myself, when my boy asked me “Ai what you doing la …” While walking towards me. He saw me camwhoring and then he had a suggestion!

CAMWHORE BATTLE!!!!!

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………… Please ignore the hideous background. Hehe. Spontan camwhoring is liddat wan. >.<

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 I iz back! I haven’t been blogging for the longest time because I was computer-less for the past few months at work. Yes, computer-less. I’m like a scavenger, waiting for my preys to leave their seats, then I iz steealll their computer to sent out my emails. How sad right. Nama company saje canggih canggih, but actually macam puki. Actually I STILL don’t have my own computer, but Michael is nice enough to share his PC with me. So YAY I think I can blog more often now.

 Some of you might think “Cannot blog at work, can blog at home kua …” It’s just not the same. 

1. When you go home, you just don’t want to sit in front of the computer anymore. Z eyes needs rest. Yes?
2. Blogging at home = suicide. I don’t want my boy to read me post. And if I tell him, “I wanna blog in private.” Con-lan-firm, his boy-brain will churn out some nonsense conclusion like … “Oh you wanna write about me, tell the whole world, me iz bad bf la, yada yada yada” So, no thank you … I rather blog @ work or no blogging at all.

 July & August were the most fucked up months I had in years … and I don’t even want to talk about it anymore.

 Shall continue blogging tomorrow again. Gotta get back to work.

 Bai. Oh ya, work suck balls. T____T

Good news. I’m alive!

Lol. I know I’ve not been blogging for the longest time, and i know you all miss me, so … I’m back!

And guess what? *sings “Where should i begin …. to tell a story … blah blah blah*

I’m exhausted. Super duper tired. With work, life, and if you noticed, i used the word L.I.F.E, so I’m pretty much tired with everything. Work. Sigh. We all have stress at work. All at different levels, and I’m not gonna argue or debate that MY WORK is more stressful than yours. I think the most stressful part about work now is, i have 3 heads to report to. Actually, including my boss, make that, four. So imagine listening to 3-4 ppl to get ONE job done. So when work A is given, Head A will say do this, and you get A done, but Head B will say nonono, do this, so you incorporate B’s ideas in, then Head C will say, I think we should do this too, so you add in C’s input … then A will say who ask you to do like that? So you change it, then B say, weiiii i ask you to add B why you never add? Then finally Boss will say Hello, where are you brains … this sucks, revise, do again!”

Oh and how can i forget people from the channel, because all 4 heads, are only powerful in my department, but still kow tow when it comes to the “ever-so-brilliant-channel-people”.

And extra stress comes from a specific specimen that think she is the almighty one, that instructs me to do really really stupid, no brainer stuff like “Erm … i need you to bring this to Location B at 5.30pm” Er … right … just choose the BEST time to leave office … biatch! T__T So sohai-cher will brave through traffic to deliver, shit to location A, and then at Location A, the almight one will say, Oh can you bring this back to the office, and do this and that and this and that … so that it can go on air tomorrow?” So yea … sohai-cher will go back, and finish the given task, at 11pm, will drive home, thinking, “Ahhhhh … finally go home, have a good rest.” BUT SOHAI CHER is SO DAMN WRONG, because the phone WILL and SHALL ring … and the almighty one will say “OH, btw, i have this presentation happening tomorrow at 10am, so can you get my presentation kit done, by 9am”. Wohoooo. SO sohai cher goes back home, get the shit done, while the boyfriend is complaining, wake up work, before sleep work .. and then sohai cher will finish everything by 5am, sleep for say 2-3 hours before return to  the dungeon. 

So tell me, if this is not stress. Then what is? 

A. “I can’t bank in money because i got the wrong bank account number, and i keep trying and people behind me waiting?” or 

B. “I wanted to eat, i round the whole taipan for 15 mins, no parking … knn, have to walk damn far.” or 

C. “I wanted to go online, but like no internet connection” or 

D. “I play this level so many hours, cannot pass wei … stresssss” 

According to experts, your answer iz WRONG!

The correct answer is, E. ALL of the ABOVE

T_________________T You feel me pain?